Today's meat - 3 chuck roasts and a london broil for ~ $78, a little less than 14 lbs of beef. actual average price per pound, $5.69. This is roughly a week's worth of meat, now all sliced up into steaks and mostly in my freezer. How many of you are eating on $80/wk? Also bought 4 lbs of bacon ends & pieces for $10, but those are mostly for my wife. I've been eating a lot of butter lately. I snack on it, just little slivers - cut a pat off, then cut it into 4-5 pieces. But I've been eating 1-2 4oz blocks per day. That's probably too much. The binge didn't quite end with shopping - got a couple donuts and a 40oz bottle of cold brew coffee (unsweetened) to finish it off. The psychology swimming around my head today, though! Went dark a couple times. This addiction shit sucks. Managed to work my way out of it, literally - lots of little household/mechanical chores and fixes (mostly work out in the garage). That's always been my go-to - start tinkering around with tools on projects, mainly for other people's benefit, and let the thoughts run themselves through. Not ignoring them, accepting them, and giving myself a way to move on.

Well, today hasn't started so great. I'm not one of those carnivore zealots that will tell you they've been carnivore for 821 days and never cheated once. Nope. I've cheated plenty, and I lost count of days very early on. Let's say I've been trying to eat a meat-based diet for almost a year and a half. And I've done fairly well at trying. I don't plan cheat days, although I used to allow a weekly donut or two on my shopping day. Today, I went to the kitchen to make a power bowl (my recipe at the bottom of this), and someone had left a box of donuts in the dining room. I live in a house of 8 - extended family, multi-generational. I'm the only one even close to carnivore. Well, that it like leaving a plate of coke out... I'm now 4 donuts in, some peanut butter, pancake syrup, honey... two cups of coffee... basically a full-on binge of all the shit I've struggled with giving up. Do I feel good? No, but not horrible either. Did I make and eat my power bowl? Fuck yes. So this is my accountability. Clearly that shit is way off the path for me. It probably won't kill me, but it won't keep me alive either. I didn't go smoke a cigarette, because I still don't want to live in withdrawal every day, but the fact is, I still do - just from sugar instead of nicotine. Yes, every damn day. Tell me again what is the worse addiction, nicotine or sugar? Think real fucking hard. I know my answer. Power bowl: my standard is 1/2 lb of 80/20 ground beef, 5 eggs, salt, shredded cheese. Butter. Start by browning the ground beef with a hunk of butter in a frying pan. Do not drain. Add some salt. Cover. Once the beef is browned and chunked up into bits, (it can still be a little pink on the insides, if you like), crack 5 eggs over the beef. Break the yokes. Stir it up a few times with a spatula to get even distribution. Keep covered in between stirrings. When eggs are almost fully set, turn off heat, add some cheese (and maybe another hunk if butter) to the top, and cover. Once cheese is melted, spatula out into a big bowl and eat. Add more salt if you want. The eggs should suck up most of the grease. If they don't, maybe my dog gets a greasy bowl to clean out when I am done. I don't always add cheese, just if it is around. My guts are a little sensitive to it, but usually I will pay that price. I do often add other meats - sausage, liver, bacon, ham, spam, whatever is around. Today I added some bacon ends. I vary the egg count sometimes, but usually average 5 eggs. That fits nice in the pan, bowl, and stomach. And I try to wait until 10am to make them, but don't always succeed. I've made them in the afternoons and evenings as well, although I usually try not to eat after 4pm. Power bowls are one thing I make that I can feed to most of my household, regardless of whatever food habits they might have. No vegetarians here at this time, thank goodness. I won't trick them with adding organ meats, but I will change it up occassionally - made my son a bowl with hot dogs instead of ground beef a few weeks back, as that is what I had defrosted and ready to go. I usually only eat them on the weekends, and haven't had them as much as eggs have been expensive and I haven't felt like bugging my neighbor for fresh eggs. But there was a sale this week, so power bowls were back on the menu. Cheers!

Gm. Probably a lazy Sunday, but not too lazy...

Gn. I admit I am envious of my dog's sleep abilities.

Went to Olive Garden to celebrate my son's team win (12-4) on the soccer field. No Olive Gardens near us, so since we were near one for the game, took the opportunity. My wife is a spaghetti fiend, so a nice gesture all around. Our waiter was spectacular. A great experience. However, that menu must be the least carnivore/low-carb friendly I've seen. Two choices, a six-ounce steak, or fish. I took the steak. I assume it was cooked in soybean oil, as their dietary/allergy disclaimer (I read it) stated that they don't consider soybean oil an allergen, beacause the guvmint doesn't, and so their allergen checklist doesn't include it. However just abot everything (including the meat sauce) show that they contain soy. Oh well. I'll get over it - but won't be returning to an Olive Garden anytime soon, unless dragged there by the wife.

Gm. Back to being a soccer dad today.

Gn. Today has been a solid mix of everything. I'm okay with that. Putting my life on shuffle is better than putting it on repeat, I think.

Gn. Planning on taking some time to evaluate moving back to linux as a primary desktop OS. Also looking closely at all my digital use cases. Very close to pissing off some family by exiting certain platforms.

Gm. Today is pretty wide open to be awesome!

Gn. Got to spend some time with my (almost 20 yr old) daughter today. Some other important stuff happened too. Been a good one.

Gm nostr. Busy day ahead.

Gn. Happy to put another day behind me. Bring on the next one!

Gn nostr. Really tired, for no discernable reason.

Gm. All is well.

Gn nostr. Gn.

Today at Safeway (local supermarket), bought about 25 pounds of beef, spent about $120. By that rounding, $4.80/lb. Actual average/lb, $4.65. That is more than I should eat in a week, probably by half (I estimate closer to 2 lb/day), but at that price, it was worth filling the freezer a little more. That was entirely london broil and chuck roast, which is now all sliced up into roughly 1" steaks. Not my favorite cuts, but will get me through to my half-cow that should be here in a few weeks. Second freezer is being delivered tomorrow. Half-cow was purchased for $5.50/lb hanging weight, with processing and kill fee included. I paid just under $2,000 for about 350 lbs. I estimate I will actually get about 230 lbs of processed meat out of that, so will have paid an average of $8.50/lb, although I am asking for all the organ meats, fat trimmings, soup bones, tripe, etc. that the processor can throw in - and this beef should be far superior to what I am getting at the supermarket for cheap. #carnivore

GA. Back from a weekend ride/camping trip that took me to Port Angeles (northwestern tip of continental USA) and across the Tacoma Narrows bridge, among other places. All good weather. Did it while fasting, nothing but water since Friday afternoon (broke it a little while ago, so 42 hours). Good energy, lots of touching grass and being out in the (somewhat hazy because of wildfire smoke) sun.

Gm Reply Guy. Busy day ahead, probably thr same for you, fren.

Gn nostr. My mind is far busier than it needs to be. 💤🛌

Gm. Today we prepare. Tomorrow we ride.