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I am happy.
I am healthy
I am young
I have a loving family
I have enough monthly income
I am attractive
I am fit
So where is this feeling of being rested, calm, and content even coming from?
No I am not spiritual nor religious, I havent prayed in a whole year.
I am 100% mentally sober and physiologically rested but I have no idea why I am feeling this way.
I am empty but not empty and I have no idea how to explain it even to myself.
I feel like I want to rip the bones out of my niece body ( that how much I love her ) but I don’t feel like having my own.
I am receiving dozens of followers requests from men on an app but I don’t feel like it.
I was convincing myself that PhD is what I need but I don’t feel like it.
I am even refusing to go on vacations because I don’t feel like it.
What do I even want?
I don’t even feel like I want anything but then what? This (then what?) is too scary to deal with.
I am too used to staying home.
I just can’t.
If I were to have a job, I don’t believe that it will last for more than 2 months.
Every human being has the absolute right to own a gun.
The emptiness is just unreal.
I am sick and tired of watching posts of cups of coffee in selfies with cropped faces.
I petty you because you have a real world to talk about whilst all I can see in my language is women talking makeup and skincare products and men who are broadly expressing an admiration for a vision they haven’t created themselves.