Sometimes being grief stricken makes you miss a lot When you're in shock you don't ask as many questions And definitely not always the right ones

I'm going to hack him

Ever since my cousin lost his daughter because her fiance caused the death of her and their newborn He's been so cold to me I didn't kill her I didn't do anything to him His father already had a problem with some of the family over politics But this is not my problem or my fault and has nothing to do with him I don't get it Hailey was a bitch But she didn't deserve to go out like that And they should have done something If nothing else It was negligent homicide And I was there for them I was respectful I was willing to jump this kid after the funeral with a dozen other people Idk what more I could have done

Growing frustration with my cousin His site is trash I kinda just want to hack him for the lolz and the fuck you

The time two of my exes wanted to race in the rain to "fight" each other over me After they already decided I wasn't worth it I tell them no and they're going to crash I condone nothing It starts to rain My warnings get stronger The car I was in Was the one that didn't crash One says you're always right idk why I don't listen The other thinks he won a prize until I told him he was an idiot

Reality Jumping in a car with someone suicidal Their guilt kicked in I was laughing and smiling Having so much fun as we skidded across the road Drifted around every corner Rain pouring down The road slick and some parts turning to mud They wanted to die But not kill me Especially in that moment Especially with that attitude Oh God I'm an angel Like what Ok Sure

My uncle's 3rd run with cancer Well I guess God plays dice

People always want some deep profound meaning in everything Yeah sure It's the quantum mechanics of time

People saying Everything happens for a reason My mind Ok what's the reason Let me guess I've been so concerned about driving under the influence or not in the right state of mind recently out of nowhere after many years of enabling people to drive under the influence Heavy influence And swearing there's no possible way we'll die get hurt or get in trouble And was never wrong All the times I've been in a car with a driver that was actually suicidal and trying to flip the vehicle but magically couldn't All the times I bragged about feeding the driver booze encouraging speeding and hanging out the window only to see a news story the next morning of sober people doing the exact same thing only to meet an untimely early death All the times tragedy should have struck but didn't And I may have just been insanely lucky for far too long and reality needed to set in I'm not immortal What about the other people involved If I'm supposed to learn a lesson I didn't get it Maybe shit just happens

Dark humor Well you were always being an inconvenience to everyone around you Why not go out like that

At least he got to see the eagles win the Superbowl

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So curious Will I still have the same anxiety riding at night Will it be worse Or will it go away It came on suddenly I assume it was a second wave from the weed But I felt it again later I wondered if I just started becoming a pussy out of nowhere Something was wrong Not too long ago I was riding every night Looking up at the stars Jamming to the music One hand flailing freely Slamming it down Headbanging Not a care in the world Then it all changed

O it just hits different

Just weird Death Are you surprised to see me here Me No You come so often I'm desensitized Real as fuck though

Next time death comes to me in a dream I should just ask him Wtf now Wish I could remember more

This is why only the good die young Because getting old is terrible It's fucking hell Especially if you're not rich