SubconsciousErosion_0x0

Lol what? He gets suggested too much Idk this man I've never spoken to him in my life

Its been over a week since my uncle died... And I still haven't gotten his apartment cleaned out yet. I feel like it shouldn't have taken this long. I don't have much more time before the landlord gets involved. Haven't asked anyone for help. I'm moving most of it on a bicycle. Idk if I don't want to ask for help because I'm used to doing things alone and suffering 67-78% in silence... Or if I'm used to disappointment/false promises... Or a combination of the two. Probably a combination of the two.

Life is about to be even more boring Alas Partying I knew ye well Le sigh Tis time to grow up Le sigh again

I think I need just one more stroke to really make me quit drinking and smoking and avoid the drama

Weird dreams A C Kurt Bombs Abandoned house Rando ppl Graffiti Cops

https://youtu.be/E9eLz4DrwF8?si=f1p_D6AYO4-gPRQ9 Kek

They're all perfect for book ciphers Especially the one about assassins (pertaining to Israel) I'm not in the mood now But eventually... I'll use them.

I collected some of your things Every book you never had time to read What curiosity brings What you wanted to know What was so interesting What information you wanted to flow You ran out of time I'll read every last word though (Poetry)

How are you going to sleep and cheat your way through a bunch of old upper middle class dudes being a regional manager for Gaylord palms and be taking your 88 year old mother's social security check as soon as it comes in after you've already got her stuck in a mortgage for a house you lost after your husband divorced you for being a lying cheating cunt who thinks she's better than everyone and telling people you were embarrassed to marry a nurse instead of a real doctor Don't do cocaine

The good news: For years my neighbor's bitch of a "daughter" has been stealing from her elderly mother Running through a string of old ass sugar daddies No amount of money was ever enough Today her brother (the biological child) is pressing charges on her and finally putting a stop to her bullshit I'm happy for her She's a fucking hoe ass cunt

Life just kept throwing curve balls I felt nothing One thing after another Just falling apart And I was so numb to it all Trying to muster up the appropriate reaction The expected outrage But quite dead on the inside I was saving all the emotion Waiting until the really big thing And now it's here A few uncontrollable tears A sigh of disappointment Sad for the missed plans Sad for the things we didn't get to do Sad for the future empty seat at Thanksgiving Sad that the last time I saw you I was scooping you off the floor Sad I couldn't do more Sad that the last few days were true suffering Sad I couldn't stop time Sad that I didn't know what to say on so many occasions Sad you never got to see your garden in bloom All the things I planted for you Sad for the gifts I never got to give Sad that I wasn't there to hold your hand as you left this shit world behind Sad I never got to talk to you more about my philosophical indifference to the world Sad that you were left alone so many times Sad that I had to silently watch your mind unravel Just Sad

That's terrible

[Actually] reading a fictional book feels like an act of rebellion in itself

Most people do this and I don't know why (The following is an example of what not to do) I confronted someone with a lie they had told everyone. It wasn't even a big deal, however, I'm looking for patterns. When said person was presented with the counterargument by the third party, the proceeded to deflect by pointing out something potentially awful about the third party. I had stated that the third party discussed how the friendship between them and this person was terminated. Simply put, he was bothersome and had interrupted the third party's girlfriend's sleep by being relentless and needy; to which the person rebuttals with "I don't even have his GF's phone number". I stated that it was conveyed that part of this onslaught of calls was via Facebook, to which he had no response. Of course not. Now if you're defending yourself, don't just assume you know more than you do, and certainly don't state which mediums weren't used unless you're prepared for a follow up. Every piece of information offered unprovoked just serves as a clue -- well if you offer up some information willingly, why not other information? Especially if it's so similar in nature... Such as pertaining to the method of conveyance... Just odd. However, while being accused of telling a story that may have not been true, the person decided to out the third party as being a very young waifu enthusiast. To which I noted was concerning, but had nothing to do with the issue at hand. This is deflection and a distortion. He remained friends with the third party after witnessing questionable behavior, so why would he use this information to sway my opinion about the third party and make him seem less trustful? It wasn't a big deal when he witnessed whatever it was that he witnessed. But... He knows I heavily frown upon that type of degeneracy. Nevertheless, this doesn't change the fact that he lied to me and everyone else about something so small. Something that he does to everyone... Incessantly annoying actions that put people off. He does this to me, he does this to other people, and people do not want to engage with him because he is needy and clingy. My biggest question is why would he think that I would buy in to his shenanigans when I'm already aware? This is weird to me. This is not something that one should do. Being honest is better. Being a good liar is more favorable.