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GM. Spring is here and we couldn't be happier about it.

GM. Wondering how Germany will vote today.

Linus responds re: Rust in the kernel drama: https://lore.kernel.org/rust-for-linux/CAHk-=wgLbz1Bm8QhmJ4dJGSmTuV5w_R0Gwvg5kHrYr4Ko9dUHQ@mail.gmail.com/

Finally fallen in love with Rust after completing the Chaincode BOSS challenges with it. Still a lot to learn, but it feels great to be somewhat proficient with a solid lower level language. Also on the proficiency todo list: * Nix * C/C++ * CMake * Advanced systemd mastery * NextJS Getting there one step at a time. Jack of all trades, master of none? Sure why not.

At last, some clarity is emerging out of the fog. It's time to burn the boats. After quite some time navigating "unemployment", I've come to the realization that I can't go back to abominable world of LinkedIn, corporate bullshit, selling my time, attention and interest for somebody else's "vision", profit or "opportunity". I'm unemployed primarily because some aspect of my soul knows this and won't even allow myself to entertain that world anymore. Taking the last months reskilling myself toward working in Bitcoin and FOSS, on technologies and projects I actually *enjoy* and believe have meaningful impact for the world, I've been teetering on the brink of fear of stepping into the unknown. What if it doesn't pan out? What if I'm not good enough? Over the last days, a realization is beginning to dawn. I can't go back to that world. It's soul-killing and if that is ignored, likely body killing as well. I don't know how I'll eventually be able to earn an income, or what I might even end up working on, but I can't go back. And as I've taken my long-delayed baby steps into uncertainty, encouragement and support has shown up in the form of free community support / training programs, inspiring community members and project opportunities. There's so much to learn, so much to be interested in, it's overwhelming. But it's time to throw myself into this world fully and stop puttering around, entertaining the possibility of a backup plan from some LinkedIn recruiter. Even if I have to start selling my Bitcoin to pay the bills, even if it means starting at the bottom again, with unfamiliar, yet exciting, technologies and projects. Life is meant to be lived and there is no life for me in that LinkedIn, opportunistic, narcissistic world of self promotion that passes for status-quo company culture. It's time to burn the boats. I'm writing this primarily for myself, to mark this moment of clarity, for when I might need to look back on it.

GM. Here's to closing the door on "opportunities" that keep you trapped in old patterns of identification. Time to commit to doing things differently, and risking the unknown.

GM. Here's to interestedly following fate and letting problems solve themselves. Started reading Man's Search for Meaning by Victor E. Frankl, an Auschwitz survivor and psychotherapist, a student of Freud. It's a true inspiration toward surrendering to one's fate, to recognizing that suffering *is* consciousness, and finding honor and purpose in "being worthy of one's suffering".

GM. Here's to waking up unexpectedly at 2am and making the most of it.

GM. Here's to practicing everyday.

GM. Here's to expressing Love in the world by simply letting other people be who they are, and politely declining their projections.

GM. Here's to loving yourself enough to cut whatever is keeping you from peace out of your life. Even if it hurts, an investment in pain now may lead to healing and harmony later. Life is too short to be "tolerating" adverse conditions indefinitely. May we have the wisdom to identify these situations.