It’s good that I use a text app to text these guys I go on dates with for my series. Or they wouldn’t stop coming at me. It’s crazy, I feel men get more attached to women who don’t want them and have other men lined up, than women who want them Everytime I’ve been loyal to one man only, I’ve been treated poorly BUT everytime I’ve dated several men at the same time, they all got attached to me and I ended up emotionally healthy 🤷‍♀️

Imagine if a man had 10 dates lined up in a row, do you think they’d get emotional over one girl 👧 after the first or second night or would they be excited for the next couple of dates with different women? I think they’d be excited for the next dates, most men don’t have feelings or emotions. So maybe I just need to shake off this feeling for this guy and get excited for the next couple of dates 🤗 View quoted note →

I felt emotionally close to the guy last night and I’m not sure how I’m gonna go on another date with another guy for my series again tonight? Do men ever face the same stuff women face #feelings

I shouldn’t have given in last night 😔

Sky latern in the air, date in the park last night. It ended up being more than what I anticipated 😒 I blame it on my antidepressant that gets me really turned on or maybe cause we were in a near by park and it felt exotic and close to nature 🪔🏞️ 😒 🤷‍♀️

Just kidding not that I know Raytheon tech, don’t take anything I say seriously I’m just playing around

But how cool would it be if it was poisoned ice, the kind that disappears like Raytheon tech

Some men disgust me to the point of wanting to poison their ugly asses lol jk I wouldn’t actually do that

Some men are just idiots especially the ones I date 🤷‍♀️ #facts ughhh

I never understood why people force me to live in NYC. I tried to move to LA 2 years ago and I just got talked to moving to nyc instead? Now been trying to move to LA for 2 months now, and every guy I meet forces me to live in NYC. Do men not understand that the more women are forced to do something, the more they don’t want to do it. It just pisses me off with the dude’s attitude. I’ve never lived in California and I deserve to live in good weather for once in my life of being in America 🇺🇸 uggh fuck you all

A simple conversation that pisses me off 🤷‍♀️

At the end of all of this just remember “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” so yeah I’d never let social media get to me the way it did in 2020 but that’s because I went through the worst

The 2020 drama will happen all over again for the next few months unless Kamala is winning. I was trolled so badly on all social media for not supporting Biden administration and I had to delete all my social media. I became suicidal due to being trolled this badly on social media with the death threats, violent posts, trolling 24/7 and my threats that my nudes will be everywhere if I don’t support Biden administration or the democrats. I don’t even care about who wins It was hard to pick myself up, but if you’re a woman influencer or just someone struggling with mental health is what I suggest you should do, if Biden administration tech and marketing team starts creating bots to troll on social media. 1. Find Shelter For Yourself First: This means get another platform like nostr, or anywhere where you can post without being known. 2. Be Brave: Don’t care if there are threats of your nudes being released, you should be comfortable enough with your body that even if your pics are released you feel that they did you good, not worse 😏 3. Don’t care: Say what you want to say and do what you want to do, this scares the troll techs or bots, maybe they think they won ( in my opinion, this works) 🤷‍♀️

The 2020 drama will happen all over again for the next few months unless Kamala is winning. I was trolled so badly on all social media for not supporting Biden administration and I had to delete all my social media because I became suicidal with the death threats, violent posts, trolling 24/7 and my threats that my nudes will be everywhere if I don’t support Biden administration or the democrats. I don’t even care about who wins It was hard to pick myself up, but if you’re a woman influencer or just someone struggling with mental health is what I suggest you should do, if Biden administration tech and marketing team starts creating bots to troll on social media. 1. Find Shelter For Yourself First: This means get another platform like nostr, or anywhere where you can post without being known. 2. Be Brave: Don’t care if there are threats of your nudes being released, you should be comfortable enough with your body that even if your pics are released you feel that they did you good, not worse 😏 3. Don’t care: Say what you want to say and do what you want to do, this scares the troll techs or bots, maybe they think they won ( in my opinion, this works) 🤷‍♀️

I dont know how Facebook and tiktok never get banned or face as much heat from governments as Twitter/x. Instagram never faces anything either but that’s good. View quoted note →

Date night vibes

It’s time to delete WhatsApp, way too many spams with no opportunities making my phone slow with too many group messages

There are religious concepts that say that seeing an open doorway 🚪 with another person in a dream signifies entering a new stage in your life with new opportunities. You are a person that is receptive and willing to accept new ideas and change. But if you asked my cousin doctor in Arizona who is an MD physician for sleep medicine 💊 he will tell you that most people have their mind compartmentalized. You have hidden pieces of yourself in areas of your brain 🧠 that identify what you want in life, maybe this time you opened that doorway ( how I know what he will say? Because I’m an MD doctor too 👩‍⚕️ ) @jack why are you in a doorway with me? You already have everything

Yesterday I had a dream that @jack, me and my friend were standing in a doorway, we were talking and she smiled at him. She then made a comment at him saying “his dick has eyes 👀 “ that’s to say when someone has a giant dick 🍆 I remember feeling jealous in the dream. But I felt more in control in my dream, I felt that I could hold @jack hand 🖐️ and take him away. Previously, in my dreams with other men I’ve dated, I’ve felt helpless when jealous but with jack I felt more in control I guess?! 😳 Although that could be just how I feel in wake life about Jack Dorsey (confident and not all that nervous) it might have nothing to do with meds producing lucid dreams that make you feel in control. Jack looked different in my dream, alot better, how he looked when he used to give lectures at universities like Columbia and Berkeley 🤷‍♀️ I woke up feeling jealous but in control

The antidepressant I take starts at a minimum dose of 100mg, modifying to 200mg can give dreams you can control also called lucid dreams