wow chat good thing I have a spare phone cause my other one just did something I have never seen a phone do before and now it's dead.

the other thing is that I never really thought about how the potential for all of these bleeding hearts left in the wake of my absence, but I'm not sure who to blame for that. am I the one asking me to step away from my duty and obligation to improving the morale of my generation? it's a logistical issue mostly, in that perhaps actual real life beings may require my time, not that none of you are real life beings, but you're also kind of not? I suppose nobody anticipated me being on the receiving end of so many parasocial internet affections but here we are and I love you, too. when you miss me, just think of the solid five years we had together—you reading my writings and not knowing how to respond, and me thinking you don't care but you really, really care. what is the proper resolve? vlogging is too intrusive and newsletters are low key lame. I'm open to suggestions.

chat vlogging is a form of socializing and honestly I'm not the biggest fan of socializing but I am willing on some occasions to do a live stream of myself maybe practicing percussion or maybe I will get some synthesizers and show you how good I am at patching and twisting knobs ok.

chat it's the dawning feeling that I may soon be compelled by my own sense of compassion to account for a specific portion of my mean tweets regardless of whether they were warranted by circumstance and a history of grandiose hubris and malfeasance

chat: vlogs

chat what are some of your favorite bands with ridiculously good drummers who make you think wow nobody could ever be that good of a drummer? I need to challenge myself.

GM chat I love you🌻

chat I'm so tired of men and their games I just want a puppy rn

chat whatever happened to the family crest??

chat I can't anymore everything it's all just bonkers over there and everybody is kung fu fighting meanwhile I'm asking the AI what my babies will look like with this dad or that dad and quite frankly they're all good looking and I'm feeling a bit distressed about thinking of my eggs like peace offerings

chat trust the process, please and thank you.

chat have you ever thought about what it means to joyfully surrender?

today I woke up and did this to a cauliflower :)

the thing about being a Christian is that no matter how benevolent I find the death of evil, it's not about the person, as people are effectively harbingers of whatever they choose to embody. alex karp comes across as a real life serial killer type because he doesn't understand that all wars are fought in the spiritual realm first, and the Christian ethos is to pray and supplicate oneself to God for answers on how to handle one's enemy with compassion and clarity on how to fix the problem rather than exacerbate it. alex is a Jew and as we all know, they very often hate Christ because Christ said to love our neighbors and turn the other cheek and do good to those who hurt us. Jews are spiteful and cruel and greedy, using any excuse to act accordingly, but especially their historical sense of victimhood. and alex views Drea like an enemy for this reason: I won't support killing thousands of innocent civilian children just because a hundred of my own people were senselessly allowed to be used as bait for a broader war that my people wanted to start. a Christian would have said that we must make peace first and consider the entirety of how we arrived at this place of anger and resentment. a Christian would then have to self-examine if, perhaps, we were acting against the laws of God and this was the consequences of that, and would have to take responsibility for righting our own wrongs. but these virtues are not so with Jews like Alex Karp, who think only about killing and maiming all those who oppose him, like a rabid animal who has been starved to love, except he himself chose to deny Christ's love, and so he lives in a compound somewhere in Norway, popping out only to tell us how happy he is that he's being rewarded with more money for his successful assistance on genocide. but it's not just the genocide of Palestinians, it will eventually amount to the genocide of Christians, because we are standing firmly in the way of an all out murder spree of every constitutional and God given right we have. do you want to know how many times Alex Karp has thought about killing people? well, like Jesus said, if you so much as lust after a woman you have already committed adultery in your heart. true, none of us are perfect, but if is through God's grace and mercy that we do not send out evil intentions for this world, and instead transmute them into opportunities for peace and joy. the Christless heathen lacks this spiritual tool, and thus, weaponizes his own fear and loathing into that which destroys entire nations, if not the entire world. we must all choose who we will serve, and I will not serve that beast.

the problem is that alex karp hates Christians and shouldn't be tasked with overseeing any sort of kill chain based technology for that reason. he is the antichrist in that sense and I'm sorry but that's not gonna fly in a Christian nation buddy. he would probably have gay panic attacks if Peter Thiel said he actually likes me and the way I think about things. that would honestly be hilarious haha.

and low key every time alex karp tries to sound like a based masculine trad male with his game of thrones level "I wish I could rape women but women hate me" schtick I'm also like lmao ok buddy get in my phone and use every last bit of metadata you can find to try to get the entire chain of law enforcement and intelligence to work against me bitch. watch what happens in this free country called the United States of America you psychotic faggot. and then in my head I send about a billion 😂 emojis into the ether and the universe often responds with👌🏻. you honestly can't let anyone that ugly and demented bully you into submission.