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Parallel Structures
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Seeker of truth. Lover of freedom. Rebel. Misfit. Aspiring Christian. Bitcoiner. Father. Electrician. Creator. Been through some sh!t. Made in God's image.
Older trucks look way more badass. This is a move in the right direction. You will never find me driving something like a cyber truck. They look so dorky. Just my opinion. image
Often, the things we love the most are those that enslave us. Discernment is crucial because the devil is extremely deceptive and knows what will draw us in. For twenty years I thought I was living out a freedom filled life; living in a van, traveling, climbing, music festivals, psychedelics, etc. I also mastered the art of picking up attractive women. When I was around 30, I had 4 years of work free life. Doing whatever I wanted. I believed the lie that this was freedom, when, in fact it was enslaving me. I always needed more. I never felt satisfied. I believed a wife and family would only rob me of that freedom. I couldn't imagine giving it up. I loved my life style (specially the hot women) But there was a deep emptiness. A longing for something more that wouldn't go away. I was burying the real truth, that I did in fact want a family. I just felt to weak to step up into the man I knew I had to be. To cowardly to give up my selfish lifestyle (sex, drugs, and music) I almost missed my opportunity for something better. Lost to a life of selfish lust. An aging man stuck on the scene, chasing the momentary fix to cover up the pain. Turning to Christ changed everything. He opened my eyes to the truth and gave me the strength needed to repent of my sin. I thought I would never be able to live a monogamous life. But here I am. Does this mean everything is easy? Absolutely not. It's a lot harder to be honest. But I now rely on God's strength and wisdom instead of mine. The longing that felt insatiable now feels like it is disintegrating. There's true joy, peace, love, fulfillment, patients, sacrifice, and purpose that comes with committing to a Godly life, to a wife and family. It is worth every ounce of what I had to let go. I truly am a new man. A new creation. Created for good works. Praise God. #ToChristAlone #freedom